Monday, August 09, 2010
its 415am, and i'm still awake.
still full from half a bowl of tang yuan tao huey.
so full that i dont feel like sleeping now.
i'm weird. i can stand for really long hours after meals.
kinda amazing i think. haha.
just reached home not long ago from bbq.
i love activities like bbq and steamboat.
i love eating bbq and steamboat food.
and i like the feeling of hanging out with my friends on such events.
it feels a little different from just a casual dinner elsewhere.
2 weeks of school is over.
i'm still not very used to leading the life of a student.
it just feels very unreal.
maybe its too early to say, and maybe cuz i've yet to adapt.
but i do feel that i dont really like schooling life.
i dont mind studying cuz its something i'll be interested to learn.
and i dont really mind the long travelling time.
but i'm just in a very unease mode every now and then when i think about my assignments.
and i dont like this heavy feeling : (
like why do i study.
i can just do whatever i'm doing now.
still doing something of my interest isnt it.
i'm just a very simple person with no dreams, no goals.
just hoping for a simple and easy life.
like how i spent my past 2yrs plus.
goshhhh.. its just the start and i'm already having this feeling.
no good, no good.
i still have a long long way to go.
shake off all the negative thoughts!
2 more gatherings coming up this week.
and i'm gonna lock myself at home the rest of the time to work on my assignments.
study = less outings.
pardon me friends, i wont have that much of time to plan like the past.
and sorry if there are times i have to turn down any invites or outings.
its most likely due to school and also i need time with my family too.
but do feel free to ask me out still.
you'll never know if there will be miracles. hahaha.
will try my very best to arrange whenever possible okay.
you friends will never be forgotten!
SELF DISCIPLINE.
i really really need this now.
♥ bits and pieces of my memories.
4:15 AM
4:15 AM
